I think it is unfair. That it is unfair that I couldn't go through what everyone else did. To learn what it is to love someone without being afraid of what people might say, what they might do. I could never love or hold, or cherish and feel the pain of love, till recently. I feel like a newly hatched bird straight out of the milky shell. Everything I experience is new and exciting. The feelings are amplified by the alienness of them. Nobody told me how it would feel. Nobody told me about the torture of seeing somebody you loved get ripped away. Nobody told me it would feel like plummeting downwards into a pit of jagged rocks. Nobody could. Nobody understands.